Tired

Tired.  Worn out from the 2-day rdshow at taka.

Verdict:  Not bad.. made alot of frens there.  I love the feeling of being the first to touch the new hps.  AND YTDAY I FINALLY LAID MY HANDS ON THE SAMSUNG D410C!! WOOT~~ Alot of pple buying N7610 and SGH E700A.  Also, not forgetting to mention, i get to end my tiring and mind boggling days by seeing dear! ^^

Loot: Ard $272.125.  Yessh.. plus my tr pay, i'm a few steps closer to saving up to go aussie!~ (o^-^)o

Li is back in aust. T^T
Li>> Sighz really wanna send u off but stupid rdshow wan us to report at 9.  The rdshow start at 11 leh.. in the end the hps arrived late then customers still gotta wait. wtf lah..

Bro finally passed his TP on the 2nd attempt. CoNgRaTs~~  Now there's someone to drive me ard liaoz.  Keke..

F-i-n-a-l-l-y am meeting up with Jiahui!!  Having lunch tog later.. then perhaps slack ard -- wat we do best at. -luffs.

Neko needs ....... rest

01s03 gathering

Geez~ I seem to be dutifully writing an entry everyday huh?! *maj sweats*

Dear and i have been tog for a mth le!! 

[[[ お  め  で  と  う ]]]

Well, jan n i met up with yaya and li at bugis.  They met up with their former jap teacher for lunch and showed us the neoprints they took at far east.  It's the one tt allows u to draw as long as u like if there isn't anyone taking pics.  (A highly recommended machine)  Nice pics~~ And then 4 of us trotted down to Pretty Tokyo for "u-noe-wat". =p

Extracted from Li's blog:

(seriously should consider putting taking neo-print as one of my MOST FAVOURITE hobbies) Of course without fail, the neoprints turned out nice and pretty again! (shameless girl! keke..)

Whaha~~ Mine sentiments exactly. (^---^)V Belle joined us shortly aft, then yaya had to leave for jap class.  Boonwee managed to rush down from camp and we had dinner at V8.  Not bad lah hor??  Took alot of pics with li's cam cos bro took the digicam to sch for proj.  Hence gotta wait till she's back in dec b4 i can post up any pics. -sadz-

 

Speaking of pics, jan changed her hp few days ago~! WooT.. cool sia.  Make me have the urge to get a cam phone too!! Haiz.. but this plan gotta be shoved to the bottom of the shelves at the mo...

 

Countdown to li's departure: 2 days

 

Later hafta go down taka for the Starhub briefing for tml's rdshow.  Then give michelle tuition.  Then eat dinner tog with Mich n jan. Then more neoprints?!? Keke..

ECP cycling

Wah.. time indeed waits for no man.  Before u noe it, it's already end of the week.  Before u noe it, a mth has passed.  Before u noe it, it's the next x'mas season again!  Haha.. ok that's abit too early to say. =p

Ytday met up with dear and we cycled to ECP tog~~ Wee~!~!  Gd thing it rained in the morn, so the weather was very cooling and nice.  Heh.. first time i cycled from home to ECP sia.  ^__^V Later went to the newly renovated Loyang Village for dinner.  Wow!  It's very nice leh.. the ambience is there.  And u shd check out the toilet too.. it's the same kind as the zoo one.. I LIKE!  Machiam like outdoors.. very cool~

Dear went ard buying food so i sat there sipping coconut juice and looking at the beautiful night sky.   Then there's a v sha feng jing (kill scenery) incident.  Some ah pek sitting next to us sudd walked over with a tray.

(in chinese)
He: Eh.. nobody sitting here? *looks at the empty seats infront of me* (wat an assumption.. he shd hv at least asked "is there anyone sitting here" right?!)

Me: *stares at him incredulously* Uh-huh....

He: *puts down the tray and walked away*

Me: .............................

WTF!?!?!?!  Wat gives u the right to do that?? >_<# Pissed off sia..  Later i was staring at him the whole time.  I think he shd noe ba.  Cos it so happened that they got another tray to get rid off and i SWORE if he attempted to pull it off the 2nd time, i'll... *sinister laughter*.  Luckily they din manage to unleash the evil in me.  In the end the tray came into gd use.. nvm.

Finally dear bought finished everything and we could tuck into the mini spread infront of us.  Lolz!  "Our bikes look loving.. ", dear said.  Hahaha.. indeed!  They were tilted at the same angle.. haha.  Dunno how to say but tt's the feeling we got.  By the time we cycled home it was near 12 le.  Our butts hurt and feet were aching.. ouch.  Despite the physical discomfort, neko's heart is filled with love!~ Eee~ mushy.. *goosebumps*

Countdown to Li's departure: 3 days

T^T Later we're meeting up to have a long awaited mini 01s03 gathering at Bugis.  It's been awhile since i last met up with our bunch of jc frens.  Haiz.. i missed our crazy days then...

Cleaning up hse

Online.  Bored.  Nothing much for me to do.  Played Survival Project awhile.  Nth changed.  Played MU online awhile.  Nth changed either.  Hahz~

Checked my student portal and realised i SHOULD pay my continuing fees of ₤221 ASAP.  And not really wait till my results are released as wat the letter stated. Geez...  Speaking of results.. *scared* I hope i dun hafta repeat any units.. esp my Sociology which i thought was a killer.  =(  Alright, everybody else tot so too.. so maybe it ain't that bad.  (Moderations?!? *cross fingers*)  New timetable was cool cos i gotta choose and assign the dates of the lectures. ^___^

Modules for this sem:

1. Accounting & Finance (AF)
2. Management Maths (MM)
3. Banking Operations & Risk Analysis (BORA)
4. Marketing (MKTG)

And i've arranged in such a way that my sch days are mon-wed only! Wee~~ Will be in the same lectures as PeiYing and Von.  I wonder who else i'll see.. haha.  The most DUHZ thing is, my sch is supp to start in Sept.  But i have no idea why they're starting AF earlier.  Hence for the whole mth of Aug, i'm basically gg back to sch once a wk for a 3hr lect. -__-;; Spare me pls!!  Sch is not like across the rd.. it's across the ISLAND!!

Maybe hv been having a break too long.  I'M LIKE SO MOTIVATED TO STUDY!! ^^; Ok.. nobody believes. Lolz~

Neko gotta tidy up the hse cos got impt guest coming tday. =D

new skin!

Hah~ This may sound lame but i finally figured how come my june archive is not working. Apparantly i spelt "sekai" as "sakai" -__-;; argh~ At least done le!!
 
Li came over in the late morn so we could finish Kill Bill 2 from where we left off. Hmm.. weird ending.  Think part I was much much better.  Turned out that rui couldn't meet us for Ajisan Ramen.  Oh well, so we had all the time in the world~ Wahaha.. then li managed to help me tie the loose strings off my new blogskin.  (Which i've done but couldn't publish cos of the ad popping up) Oh well, wat to do?? Typing this is a html idiot leh.  *cries*
 
Went Ajisan @ Scotts branch.  Was aiming for the lunch special where ala carte ramen was 50% off. Lolz~ Threw in a yakitori mix, which had 2 of 3 diff kinds of yakitori.  2 of them tasted vaguely like satays. ^^; Spent a bomb today.. seemed like a major shopping spree to me.  Geez~ Went to the bank to apply for debit card but i forgot to bring the bank bk. DUHZ~ Ok.. i din "forget". I din noe. =p Nvm.  Hmm.. saw a gal whom i'm quite sure was HuiYing, our senior back in AHS Bball, as a L'Oreal sales promoter at Watsons (Taka).  Din bother to find out.. *chuckles*
 
Passed by Li's hse to take some stuffs b4 gg home -- Qoo bottle bought in korean shop, jap dramas, jap dramas and more jap dramas.  Watched some home videos and Arashi's nv seen b4 footage. WAHAHA~~ Luff till pengz can! =D
 
Yeah~~ This wk nv put schedule at TR.  *luffs heartily* Decided to give myself a break!  Haven't been seeing my family for a long time.  Plus Li's flying back this sat so wanna make myself extremely free.  Also the Starhub rdshow will be this wkend le.  Ok ok.. excuses.. dun really feel inclined to work at the mo.  Sheesh.. getting abit sick n tired of the monotonous work.

sick. sianz

*sniff* I'm like in a room with all it's windows closed and the fan is off. Basically, the air is still.. yet i still feel cold. I hate being sick!!! T^T Doushita No?! Haiz.. A teeny weeny wind draft can chill me to the bones. ArgH~! This sux. *sniff*

Eating... Tapioca found in the fridge. YuM~~

Ytday had great fun! Despite i was down with flu.. *must stay genki*! Tried the KBox (Paradiz centre) Lunch with Ya, Rui n Li. Not bad.. the songs were up-to-date, tog with a lunch and drinks which came up to only $7/person. WooT~ The only irritating thing was tt the advert keeps popping up for dunno wat reason and our room is beside their control. So it was kinda "lack of privacy" but wth.. we're shameless pple. =p

Lalalaa~~

Aft ktv, Rui had to rush off to give tuition. (Poor gal~) So 3 of us trotted down to Snookerium to play pool! Tt's 2 "i-wanna-do-stuffs-before-i-fly-back-aussie" striked off Li's list. ^^

Later met Jan, dear and Michelle to go to Fiestspiel XV. A concert proudly presented by Whitly Sec Sch at VCH. Wow.. been awhile since i last stepped foot into VCH as an audience!! I missed the feeling of being ON stage, watching the pple streaming in, feeling butterflies in ur stomach. Anxiousness twined with anticipation... ... ... *deep sighz* Listening them play is really.. haiz.. brought back alot of memories. Maybe i shd join my tpjc alumni band. Hehe~ It was a pretty gd concert! *clapz x3*

Walked ard Boat Quay to grab some stuffs.. the pple along the pubs were downright shameless and irritating. Leave us alone!! Bitch.. By then i was already 3/4 dead... argh. Haiz.. if it's not for dear sending me home.. i dunno if i'll be able to make it back home in one piece...

1st day @ CSPS

1st day at Starhub service centre @ PS. Hmm.. surprised!~ Saw quite a number of familiar faces. ^^ Jessica (my "buddy" i was attached to), Shin Peng "shifu", Theresa, and SANTOSH!! WOoT~ Cool sia.. pple i knew back then when i was working at the Tampines shop. Oh not to mention i saw Paul too.. the rdshow at tm. Din get a chance to talk to him. And the ecp (technician), Emily (i think) whom i knew from the chinatown OG rdshow. App she's the only one who doesn't rem me. Watever.. her face so black sia. O.o;;

Was kinda boring.. knew wat i've already known. *yawn* But i guess i'm a little rusty le. Plus i'm down with sore throat n flu, which caused me to be drowsy and unable to fully concentrate. Geez. Great. The pple there were quite nice -- Liting, some guy and Sebastian. Anw i won't be seeing them aft tml. Attachment 2days nia. Yay.

Wtf.. tr called again. Ytday also asked me to work when i put schedule and wasn't given any. Must be someone cancelled. But since ytday dear was working, decided to give him a surprise by working too. Whaha.. like how he gave me one on mon. =p

6.30pm finally left PS. (OT for 30min!! T^T) Bought Breadtalk for family's tml's breakfast (smth weird with this sentence construction. LOlz) Then went down to dear's place. Woke early to bake brownies mah.. it travelled from my hse >> PS >> dear's mouth! Haha~ *happy* Nearly fainted when i reached his hse.. felt horrible from the headache, drowsiness and chill. *sobz sobz* Dear bought ALOT of lozenges for me. Hahaha.. so sweet~ Awww.. =p Thnx dear.. really touched. *muackz*

I think how i got sick was pretty lame. Ytday supp to be a free day. So called Li over to watch Kill Bill 2 at my hse. Bought some tidbits n stuff and THAT'S HOW I THINK I GOT MY SORE THROAT. WTF.. must be din drink enuf water n immune system weak. ArgH~

Atashi mo GENKI DESU!! *whoosh* I must get well soon!! This wk too much things le. Can't afford to get sick.

Amazing Race awaits for me.. ciao~

A boring monday

Sunday was a crazy night. But i wasn't the host for the whole day!! Wahahaha~ It wasn't like VERY busy but my feet were aching at the end of the day. Sheesh. Next wk schedule sux big time. Why Sally dun put me n dear working tog on tue? In the end i work mon, he work tue. Hence our tot of going ECP cycling tday is "soaked in soup" (direct chinese translation). Geez~~ Then sat only 6-10. -___-;;

Nvm lah.. anw my whole wk seemed packed enuf. Will be having my Starhub rdshow attachment at the PS service centre on 13/7-14/7 (wed & thur) 2pm-6pm. I'd be in-charge of Processing -- ie. filling in the forms, letting customers check their hp b4 paying at the cashier. FuN! One of my fav stuffs i used to do. ^^ But also very easy to make mistakes. IT'S THE CONTRACT!! The other one is dialling the DHL (Dealer's HotLine).. but tt's beside the point.

Jacintha juz called with another tuition assignment. Teaching a P1 & P4 student one after another. Twice weekly. Lives in Bedok. $280/mth. Not bad.. Considering i'm so seng nang now.. y not?

There's a certain urge to twist off the neck (and arms and legs) of a certain guy bastard. I would have loved the sickening crunch from the detachment of the vertebrae from the spinal cord. Thunder rumbled ominously in the faraway horizon. --> this is for real. Sigh.. it's been a while. I hope she has moved on. =/ As for the bastard, i hope ur indecisiveness and hypocrisy will cause ur ultimate downfall. May u be condemned to ur worst nightmare. Outside, the rain poured mecilessly on the sick, sad world. Beating down on us.. tapping into our souls. It stings...

I need some direction in life!! Bah. I need sch to re-open soon. I guess i'm the only idiot who says that. Watever..

In the end, the sun triumphs yet once again. It's rays pierce through even the densest forest, darkest clouds and the deepest ocean; It illuminates the oasis of serenity amid chaos; It dries the tears and sorrows we've felt in the rain; It restores the warmth we've forgotten yet longed for. It gives us life. New life. We're re-born again...

Rui's doki doki story

Last night's supper was.. memorable sia~~~~ ^__________^ Rui arrived with SpeCiaL news. So in the end there were 4 of us. (Gomen Jan, u had sch so couldn't possibly call u!) It's been such a long time since we all laughed so heartily.. hwahaha... gomen ne!! Dun mean to luff at ur gd news, but the whole process was really really very sweet and cute. *grinz*. I guess tt bastard's guy's neck is pretty much sitting snugly on his shoulders. Haha~

Today's the date my parents had decided to tie the knot! We'll be going to Meritus Mandarin's Triple 3 to have dinner. Geez.. we're gonna have buffet and i juz stuffed Pringles down my throat. -__-;;

Dear called juz now!! Happy to hear his voice.. cos i missed him so much! Wont' be seeing him till his split shift tml. =p For a moment, really happy to hear tt Wilson is booking out tml. 2 wks is d-a-m-n long.. Jan must be super elated. ^^

Tml i'd be having my Starhub rdshow training at Cuppage 9-1pm. So early sia~ =_= The rdshow will be on the 24th n 25th July, in town area, UNDER THE HOT SUN!! (Can i wear a cap?!) 24th July.. I CAN'T SEND LI OFF!!!!! ARGH~!~!~! T^T Hmm.. i wonder how come Rui din get their call?!

Back home

Now i'm really back home le. Haha.. aft watching 素颜2, slept at ard 5am. Both of us are sleeping like dead logs till abt 2.45pm. Lolz.. nua ard till like 4pm. Haha.. no mood to go work so called in to cancel schedule. Hey~ At least i asked ard.. app nobody was free to cover me. T^T Din realise it had been raining the whole day~~ Damn shuang.. cos very cooling.

Looked thru posters, our H.O.P.E stuffs.. haha.. had fun~ Played 2 player Dai Di. Send sms to dear(fail). Watch tv, ate some taiwanese bing (biscuit), send sms(fail), more tv, send sms(fail), still hungry, cook instant mee, send sms(fail), watch 素颜3. NiCe~~!! Toma shuai.. Yamapi shuai.. Tsubasa shuai.. Takki shuai.. *drools* 井户 亮 (forgot his name in jap) aka the guy who sang the "song of the day"... *stops drooling* =X Hehe.. not so bad lah. Juz kinda concluded that his features only looks cute on a little boy's face. I mean, he's really very adorable lor.. juz tt on a 20 yr old guy's face.. looks weird. (Do i make sense?!) STILL sending sms(fail). WTF!!! In the end picked up the phone to dial.. Lolz.

7pm watched the tw drama 原味的夏日 starring 邱泽 & 杨丞琳. Think it's the part II. Left Ya's place at 8pm n dropped by dear's place. MiSs HiM!! ^^

Dear sent me home by 9.30pm. Been awhile since i last sat his crazy lorry. Hehe~ Ate dinner.. now gg out again. Meet Li n Ya for supper @ Simpang. Wahaha.. PiGgY?! Will be driving Ya home.. wee~! So fun!

Wee~ A tired but happy neko is rolling in the mud.. THE MUD?!!?

At ya's hse..

*yawnz* Back home.. i mean Ya's home. Hehe~ Now using her laptop to type out this entry..COOL!! Seh liaoz.. but had great fun dancing our ass off on the dance floor. ^^ SOMEONE was drowning her sorrows. *sighz* I swear i'll break tt guy's bastard's neck. >_<# Drank abit only.. vodka lime, heineken, some unknown drink, long island tea, cowboy~ Whoa.. COWBOY is GOOD!! Courtesy of Ya's cousin, Grace's, fren. Hee! Bailey's Irish Cream is my fav~~~

Munching on... Caramel corn tidbit (UMAI~!! =p~)

Listening to... FM9.33

Watching... 素颜2 (Johnny Jrs concert 1999.. Yamapi looks so diff!! 6_6)

Song of the day... I need you tonight~~ How long.. can i wait fo-r u~~ (PUahaha..)

Hmmz.. *empty tots* will write again.. zZzzZzz

Photoshoot

Haha.. the pic tt i promised. One of the 6pics we took at Starshot (watever.. i dun rem the name. ^^;;) @ Cine. This is my fav.. the rest shall remain.. a mystery. LOLZ~

p.s The photographer was hilarious.. whahaa..

Wedding pic?! =D

Zouk Mambo night!!

Pple.. if u keep seeing funny characters in my blog, I hope u noe u'll have to view it using the Unicode (UTF-8) encoding. Their either in Hiragana or Chinese. =p

In a short while i'm gonna have to pack and leave. Will be staying overnight at Ya's hse!~ ^^ Itinerary for the day:
[4pm] Reach Ya's place.
[5.45pm] Leave for Bugis. Watching the 7.30pm Windstruck at Prince. Buy LJ to smuggle in. Meet Jan.
[11pm] Meet up with Rui, Haizhen, and Jiarong @ Zouk.

ZoUk MaMbO NiTe... LeT'S PaRt-Y~!!

I really dunno wat's going on in ur mind. Perhaps we've been living in different era. The love and concern u used to shower me unconditionally, seemed too few and too rare nowadays. U've changed? Maybe i was the one who changed. I'm not the lil girl u used to cuddle and hold. It's sad.. we're like world's apart now. I can't even talk to u anymore. It's easier to count the number of hrs i DUN see u rather than counting the number of hrs i do.

Ytday we juz quarrelled again. Oh puh-lese. Wat's new? I juz can't understand how u can blurt out things that i noe u dun really mean it. It's like i stabbed u and ask, "Sorry, does it hurt?" The blood spilt, the scab formed. The wound healed, but the hurt remains. I look at my heart once again, and realised it's covered with scars.. ur scars. The grim reminder seemed to be mocking me. I hate it. I hate u. But can i really? I can't bring myself to. I juz wished u could express the gentle side of u more openly. Cos it definitely shines brighter than any stars and planet in my sky.

Am feeling sad n blue..

Geez.. woke up at 8.15am to go for Starhub rdshow interview at Recruit Express (Taka) -- 10am. *YaWnZ* Been awhile since i last woke up so early.. hmm.. i can't even rem when was the last time le. -_-;; Waited for quite long cos i think there were like 50 pple there.. luckily rui was with me. Otherwise sure died from boredom. =_= Saw sheryl!! Been awhile since i last saw her.. it was cool to meet up with old frens~ Hehe.. chatted a while while waiting for her cousin's interview to be over.

Went to Shaw House Atrium's Mac Cafe for *ah-hem* lunch. Which app seems like breakfast to me. LOLZ~ Had a chunky chicken sandwich on foccacia, cheesecake and a mango smoothie. WAD.. i tell ya.. IT WAS GOOD!!! *whistles* Weather was cool too.. and to watch pple walking pass orchard rd while sipping away on the heavenly smoothie n savouring the chezcake was... HEAVENLY. WAHAHA!! \(^o^)/

Bought a v nice capri!! And it's pink.. dun ask me y i'm so into pink now. I think my dear will puke. Hehe~ Rui bought the 宝宝贝贝在一起 bk at Kino for like $14?? It's the Part II of the 宝宝贝贝 series. It's a real cool bk. Nice pics, nice storyline, tells u alot abt life.

Ytday went out with dear to watch Spiderman 2. DoHz~ Din realise it was Youth Day and Orchard was flooded with teens. Geez.. i hate crowds. We reached Cineleisure at 5pm+ and had to watch the 9pm show. Great~ And aft checking it out at PS and back at cine, left the first 2 rows. Greater~ Haha.. but had a REALLY nice dinner at Crepes & Cream And went to take photoshoot. WHAHA~ So fun.. but machiam taking wedding pics liddat. Hehe.. will post up when i hv time. Met Bernard at PS.. chatted for awhile. =)

K gtg out again.. =/

Yang says "last CAN"??

Thursday
Hell of a busy day.. considering it's a thurs. Had the wrong pple doing the wrong stuffs :
-Bryan was salad bar/runner
-May was host
-Helva was bartender
I mean i have nth against them but i guess it was the wrong day to train them up on these posts. Keke.. In the end Bryan got pissing off by Nathan (kitchen manager) and Helva had extra help from Weisong and Daniel. Lolz~
Dear specially came down to send me home!! *touched* Actually he juz passed by to use toilet.. LOLZ!! =D

Friday
Another hell of a busy day. Waisim asked me to train up May as host. Cool~ I juz wished she was slightly more calm. Haha.. she's cute. Slogged till 10.30pm where Waisim signed food for us. Wee~~ Hence was late joining Yang, Weisong n Helva at CAN cafe. Weipeng finally cooled off i guess.. no more black face le.
Was quite tired when we reached CAN. Had a camomile float.. hmm.. not v nice. Still like my milkshake better!! There's additional member tday! Zhou Wei~ He looks drunk aft having the hoegarden. Perhaps it's juz face red. Haha..
SAD NEWS!! Yang's cutie gal-ting ting went BACK to China. O.o;; Geez.. app she's graduated from tp le. No wonder they couldn't find her name. Anw i pretty sure the NUS life sci gal, Beirong's fren is from tpjc too! Kai Ting.. rem her from our netball interfac competition. But din clarify lah.. i noe she's from 01s15 cos.. hehe.. i used to like someone there. =X Jan too.. LOLZ!

Saturday
I'm pushing myself to the limits. Worked 9hrs today. Can u believe it.. had 1hr split. Din sleep enuf the night b4 cos reached home late from CAN. Tiring day. My in-between with Gary and Fang (and Batt) was hellish -- Too much guests to handle. Lolz.. there's simply wasn't enuf time to do wat we had to do!! Argh~ Poor dear must be more tired than me. *sighz* He worked earlier than me and had only 30min break cos we really needed pple. He clocked 10hrs. At least tday he can really rest well cos he'll be working at night only. Aft work Weisong and YangYang went to CAN again.. to say bye to Beirong n Kai Ting. (Their last day at work) Was enjoying A Simple Life with Weisong while doing caddies at the bar.. until Nathan decided to come join us. =S WTF.

Will be giving tuition to Michelle later.. haha.. more juicy updates from her! *WiNkZ* Ciaoz~
Nx wk seems like an exciting wk for neko.. *MEOW*!

badminton

Ytday had badminton session with Jan, Yang, dear and their frens. Met Jan earlier since she finished sch at 3pm. We're supposed to walk to the stadium and she led me to the opp direction.. ^^;; J-A-N!! Lolz~

They booked 4 courts from 5-7pm. Wah think too long nv play le. My right arm is aching like shit now. =p Aft tt dear and Jan wanted to run so i accompanied jan to run 1 round and walk another.. barefooted. Dun have the feeling to run lah~~ Then dear went to run 4 rounds under 7min. Weather was shiok for running.. actually weather was shiok the whole day. (o^_^)o Later actually planned to eat dinner at 85, but the gals wanted to go S-11 to eat. Hence change in plan! Alot of "treat-ing" going on. Yang n dear had to treat a fren due to some bet. And dear n i had to treat yang n jan too. Lolz.. shiok lah~~

Hmm.. if u remain silent, u'll nv gain anth from it. Perhaps some things, once said, will change the relationship b/w u guys. I dunno is that wat's holding u back.. but if u asked, no matter wat the outcome is, u noe that u've tried. And it's important that at least there's one less regret in ur life. Give urself a chance.. give her a chance. I wish u all da best!! We'll be rooting for u.. u noe that. =)